Good girls

So much has been going on in life, in my head, and in my heart.
I have a job as a hostess at Chilis on the weekends now.
My head won't quit working over time on anything and it's constantly pounding with the worst headaches.
As for matters of the heart, well let's just say that they're very confused right now. I love 2 guys right now, one more than the other, and like a third younger guy.
I don't know what I want out of life anymore I just know that I don't like this part right here.
I don't think it really matters what I want out of life though because the end result is the same for all of us.
So no it's not cigarrettes, beer, cars, trains, planes, lifestyles or anything else that's killing us.
It's living that's killing us.
Why not get exactly what we want while we still can.
That's what I intend to do. I intend to get exactly what I want and then some.
I also intend to get exactly W*H*O I want.
I'm gonna get it; before life gets me.